My beta results were pretty good at 194. Hooray! At least I know it wasn’t a chemical pregnancy. So now I can admit that I am pregnant, even though it sounds ridiculously absurd. It sounds as absurd as me saying “I am an acrobat” or “I speak Swahili”. Other people get pregnant, not me. I just get BFN after BFN and buy presents for other people’s babies. Who knew that my body was even capable of this. I still don’t believe it. When I got the call today, it was honestly like any other results call (except a BFN call of course). The nurse congratulated me, told me my number and told me to come back Thursday for Beta #2. I asked her if my pregnancy is at any higher risk because of the intial low cell number of the embryo and she said no. She said it should have caught up by now. Phew! I was worried he would always be a little behind the 8 ball but I guess not. I hung up and went back to work. Weird, huh? I would have pictured myself being hysterical at this point. I did cry this morning, but since then I’ve been very calm. I just feel like I am not out of the woods yet. It is so early and so much can happen. All I know is disapointment and heartbreak so it is really difficult to absorb these results and the reality of it all. I want to ask God, why now? Why have you been withholding this from me for so long and now suddenly allow me to have it? It’s too good to be true. Is there a catch? It’s just a lot to take in.
OK, so I did leave work a little early. I just wasn’t focusing and needed to make a few calls. Only a few close friends know since they knew about the IVF, but we are really going to try not to tell our families for at least 8 weeks. (IF it sticks of course)
I canceled my WTF appt with the RE on Thursday. I was so sure that this wasn’t going to work that I made sure to book an appt right after the results. Canceling that appt was a good feeling. I really hope I dont have to reschedule it.
How do I feel right now? I have lots of twinges and some random cramping in my belly and engorged boobs. Other than that I feel pretty normal. If I wasn’t TTC I would be expecting AF any minute now. So for all of you ladies on your 2ww-dont bother analyzing your symptoms! It will only drive you nuts. I know, I’ve done it a million times.
My Timeline
July 2008- Starting actively TTC or as we called it.."pulled the "goalie". So dangerous and fun!
November 2008- Went to Urologist for semen analysis (due to pre-existing condition). Perfect results. Millions of strong swimmers!
January 2009-First visit to RE. Mostly for my evaluation.
Feb-March 2009-Tests all clear except for polyps.
April 2009-Polypectomy
July-IUI #1. Clomid 50mg. BFN.
August-IUI #2. Clomid. 50mg. BFN
September-IUI#3 Injectables. BFN
October 2009-Natural Cycle. BFN
November- 2009..IUI#4 Injectables. BFN
January 2010..IVF. 20 eggs. Transferred the lone survivor, grade A 4 cell embryo.... BFP!!!
October 2010- Baby Lily Arrives!
December 2011: IVF #2. 16 eggs. Single 8 cell, Grade A Embryo transferred. BFN
February 2012: FET. 2 Embryos transferred. One 8b and one 4b. BFP! 2nd Beta:462!
March 2012: Miscarriage at 5 weeks
April/May 2012: IVF#3. 16 eggs. Transferred 2 4 cell embryos. BFP!!!Blogroll
Stuff from Before
- June 2012 (2)
- May 2012 (1)
- March 2012 (3)
- February 2012 (3)
- January 2011 (1)
- October 2010 (2)
- August 2010 (1)
- June 2010 (1)
- March 2010 (2)
- February 2010 (6)
- January 2010 (15)
- December 2009 (6)
- November 2009 (14)
- October 2009 (14)
- September 2009 (6)
194 is much, much better than pretty good! That’s an outstanding number.
Congratulations!
194 is a great number. Good luck on Thursday with your next one. I get to go tomorrow. Scared out of my mind but I’m ready to get the number.
Looks like a great number! Congratulations!!
194!!!!
Congrats!!! That is a fantastic number. So excited for you !!
Congratulations!!! so happy for you, hope things continue to go smoothly!
Congrats on your BFP! 194 is a good number, I hope everything doubles nicely for you 🙂
Pretty good? Are you kidding? It’s excellent! You are pregnant, my dear! Swahili is next, and it will be much easier than getting knocked up. I promise!
Do something extra nice for yourself!
Mazeltov!
What a great number, congratulations!
Take it one day at a time! One moment at a time! Don’t get too overwhelmed or worked up. Just take it easy and focus on today. Yay! I look forward to reading your story. ICLW
That is a fantastic first beta number J 🙂 Congratulations – you are totally preggo!
Congrats! I imagine if/when I have a viable pregnancy, I’ll have that same surreal feeling–like, who, me, pregnant?! Very exciting stuff 🙂
Congratulations!
Those are great numbers, congratulations! I can’t wait to see your next beta. ~ICLW
Congratulations on the great beta!!
that is a FANTASTIC beta number!!! julie, i’m so so excited for you. you ARE pregnant! it’s official! i understand the need to be cautious, but try to find some space to let yourself enjoy this moment! i’m so happy for you, my dear. xoxoxoxo!
can’t wait to hear today’s beta results!