This morning was my fourth monitoring appt this week. I look like a freaking heroine addict I have so many holes in my arms!
Here are my numbers: E2=2179. Follicles: (2) 17, (3)16,15, 14.5,(2)13.5, (3)13, 12.5, (5) 12
The nurse said that depending on tomorrow’s monitoring results, tomorrow might may be trigger day! Wow. I guess the 16’s and 17’s look good but I cant imagine the 12’s being big enough for a tomorrow trigger. I dont know much but it doesn’t seem like I have that many (almost) mature follies. The RE did decrease my meds again from 112 to 75, so who the hell knows. I am sick of analyzing!
My husband wanted to have his friends over to watch the play-off games tomorrow night and I told him NO because a) I just cant deal and b) he has to give me the mega trigger shot. So instead, we are going to go out to enjoy a nice meal and some wine, since this could be my last chance for 9 months! Giving up alcohol wont be too hard but I am worried about giving up caffeine though I must admit. I have been drinking more of it lately to help fight the sleepy/cloudy brain effects from all of this estrogen and feel totally addicted to it.
I am in a pretty good place right now, but a strange place. I dont feel particularly emotional, but have an extremely short fuse. I don’t particularly want any sympathy from people but yet I am annoyed if a friend forgets to ask how it’s going when I talk to them. I feel like I cant handle any major events or socializing this weekend, but still want to keep myself busy to distract myself. I feel like a fat ass because I am so out of shape and have gained about 5-6 pounds. My pants were so tight that I almost unbuttoned them at work today. Im sure it’s a combination of the medication and my increased consumption of comfort food. I am forgiving myself though because doing IVF is rough enough let alone in the middle of January…
Well let’s hope those little follies do a lot of growing tonight….. grow follies grow!